Dear Qui Talks: I Feel Like I Am Being Pushed Against The Wall!!!

Dear Qui Talks,

Yesterday, I woke up happy and ready to take over the world. I sent out over 40 emails to different media publications and blogs looking to hire on-air correspondents the day before. So, I woke up excited to see who has responded to me. I am experienced, talented, and definitely, have what everyone is looking for. Walk to my living room, turn on my computer, and log into my email. Loading....and....no new emails. I think to myself, maybe it is still early because it is only 10am. Some offices do not open until 10 am and they need time to settle in.

I continue on with my day because I have edits that are due in a few hours and I still have to post on my Instagram for my daily videos. A few hours pass by, it is now 1 pm, let's check my email. Loading...and...you have 6 unread messages. Look at the new 6 messages, of course, they are all spam and promotional emails. Disappointment begins to set in. Now, I begin to question my talent.

"Am I a good reporter?....Do I have what it takes to make it?...Am I ever going to get to the top?...Why do I keep failing?...What am I missing?"

I drop down to my knees and started praying. Lord, did I make the right decision. I left a salary paying job to pursue my dream. Despite the fact I was not happy, I still had a consistent income and a roof over my head that I never worried about losing.

Although I am trying not to become more depress and unambitious, I am still sending out my resume. I really hope this is what I was called to do!

Talkers, how many of you are in a similar boat and feel like your career or life is on a dark path?